Talk to Geneticist on Anxiety Depression

A.o.A My name is Shahzaib and I am 19 years old Since This year start Feb To Until now I am facing And fight with Depression and Anxiety Last year In 2020 Dec I got Nikkahfied (Not Rukhstii)Until now She is my Cousin before we are not talking to much just sometime but after Nikkah I starting talking with her to much day and night everytime beacuse I thinking now she is my wife no any issue But if she doing Something Wronge which I did not like I feel so bad My mood Swings too much Up to high Like I Expected For example if she call me after 1 day so I Think she saying I missed you like this but I'm all Expect wronge Then suddenly I was felling like Someone Put out my Fellings like my love my caring for her is gone from my heart I was so depressed why this happend with me I all say to her I fell like this She is crying I also crying I Say to Allah why this happend with me Now she is my wife why this happend with me then Suddenly one day I am wakeup And I felt I lose my memory like Befor