Talk to Rehabilitation Medicine on Drug Abuse

i use medicine alot to deal with own and society. i smoke hash, methapmethamphetamine, a couple time heroin, rarely alcohol, one year before use antidepressant ? pills like znax or..., i use to smoke cigarettes from 8 standard but now i try to avoid. i know well that these are all devil ? things. but i am hopeless to deal with life and it's unwanted issues. i do drugs not everytime but when i do i do it like a person who wants to die. i don't love anyone even myself. the only thing i do sincerely is drug only. can i became a perfect man? of my life?