Talk to Gynecologist on Infertility And Psychological Issues

I am suffering from infertility since 4 years. I am unable to concieve and have lost all hope now. I am a PCOS patient also trying to lose weight have clean diet. but i am hopeless. All this is creating psychological issues with me. I get depressive thoughts. I pray to Allah that I die soon. Apart from infertility, I am facing financial downfall as well. I was a successful professional till last year July, but my inlaws and husband forced me to leave my job bcz of their ego and here I am with zero money no child trying to show others that I am happily married. I dont know why I am sharing all this, but I want to get rid from these toxic and depressive thoughts. I am hopeless I dont know whether I am responsible for the infertility or my husband but all I know is I am losing hope and going in severe depression step by step. I am facing infertility issue since 4 years Whenever I get news about someone getting pregnant or having a baby I feel very low and down. I cannot explain my feeling