Talk to Psychiatry on Gender Dysphoria

As long as I remember, since I gained consciousness I wanted to be a girl. It started with wearing my sister's clothes and makeup. Gradually this wish of becoming a girl became more and more stronger. My career and studies became affected by it as there is a great level of anxiety. Eventually I got married and when my wife was not around I used to wear her dresses and use makeup to turn myself into the woman i always felt that I had inside me. Unfortunately, my wife found out the truth and she left me only after exposing my feminine side to my family and friends. Our marriage also ended because we couldn't conceive and the doctor revealed that I have been unable to do intercourse. Now I feel very lonely and afraid that people will make fun of me. Yet, the lady on the inside still knocks and when no one is around, she comes out after 30 minutes of makeup. I am very anxious and even unable to sleep. I want to become the woman I always felt I was. Please help.