Talk to Psychiatry on Maladaptive Day Dreaming But Not Alot Season Depression

so here i am like every boy when i was 16 i used to think that i was different from others or i have very different abilities but when i was in my 9 class i started listening to different songs and started fantasying on them and letter it became a permanent habit i used to do this all the time and here i am today i drop out from my collage in order to start my practical or professional life at 17 but things but it was start of disaster in my life things began to feel harder but i just keep going and all the time i was thinking i was moving but was not able to produce at level what was expected from me long story short got fired life hits hard with the big rock here i am today seasonal depression premature ejaculation stuck in life some times everything means useless but i am hanging in and know i have created a narrative that what ever i will be doing it will be failure i dont know whats wrong with me its a mindset or something else i have problems with my personal relationships as w