Talk to Psychologist on Personality Disorder,anger,stress, Depression, Suicidal Thoughts

I have personality disorder since my childhood. I never thought im a girl,i always feel that im a boy,i have all boyish habits, thoughts, emotions, feelings, choices,likes and dislikes but after growing up,i couldn't accept my girlish body,even my name,due to which i never feel happy, comfortable, relaxed&now i just want to change my body to get inner peace and happiness,my family isn't supported and understanding my problems,they aren't willing to get me to a psychiatrist,im a student and can't afford high fees of doctors,I'mffering from depression stress, anger,i also did attempt to suicide once. I just watched your interview with Dr.Ayesha Shahid so i just came here to put my question.Plz help me what should I have to do??